4/11/2014

I haven't written in awhile. But not much has changed. None of the meds I'm on seem to work. For the past 2 days my whole bady has been throbbing and feels bruised. My back is spasaming and hurts so bad. I can't  sleep at all even with the new meds. I hate this so much!!!

3/29/2014

Today has been a pain from hell. All day my back has been throbbing, as well as my hips. When I walk I get shooting pains from my back to my hips to my knees where it feels like they are going to giver out. FML

3/19/2014

I feel like I'm just saying the same thing over and over. I feel like I'm in a never ending fibro flair. I hate this. I can't sleep. And have no energy to get anything done. I go to the new Dr tomorrow and I am freaking out, what if they don't do anything to help like the last Dr? And of course I didn't get the Lidoderm patches.....  why? Because the last Dr put on the prior authorization form that I needed it for pain management.... She was suppose to put the reason as in the 2 herniated disc in my freaking spine. I just want to give up :(

3/13/2014

Holy body pain batman. I just want to give up. Stupid insurance denied my lidoderm patches after they told me that they would cover them after prior authorization. My back feels like it is snapping in half today. I can literally feel the pain pulsating all over my body. And of course it was a damn snow day today, so I have 3 fighting kids, trashing my house and not listening to anything I say..... I am so sick of feeling like I do. I just want to cry. I hurt so bad and my house is trashed and I can't clean :(

I'll sleep when I'm dead

Which at the rate I'm going I fear that isn't to far off. My bp is sky high. I can't sleep for anything. I keep tummy cramps. I am exhausted yet can't sleep. It hurts to move. My head has been pounding for 2 weeks straight now. And I am forgetting EVERYTHING!!! I just want to feel normal. I am so tired of hurting like I do :(

3/10/2014

Well Mackenzie had 2 volleyball games Saturday. It was awful. My body just can't handle those bleachers. We came home and I just went to bed and let Hubby deal with the kids the rest of the day. Sunday I woke up with a migraine, and feeling like I had been hit by a train. I also think I'm retaining water, my fingers have been feeling all achy and swollen. I can barely move them. Today isn't much better. I'm glad the older 2 are at school and it's just me and V for most of the day. It's also kinda nice that she isn't feeling good so she isn't demanding a lot out of me today.

3/7/2014

Well after a rough start this morning and 4 hydrocodones my house is mostly clean.... I have been doing a little at a time and taking frequent breaks. Just doing dishes killed my back.The pain started at the lower center and went into my butt cheeks down my hips and legs. Even sitting down hasn't help alleviate it. I can almost say I'm ready to have surgery to fix it. But that scares me to death and honestly I can't afford to not be able to do anything for any amount of time after surgery. Don't can't get but 2 days off to help me out around the house, so yeah that just isn't possible for me right now :(